a glimmer of glamour

I've been experiencing, I don't know, a sort of wanderlust, but to go back and do something entirely different in the same timeline. Not exactly dysphoria per se, but perhaps escapism, and euphoria in seeing another potential timeline. I don't want to reject my current timeline, and history, but like someone titubating on the edge of a magic well that shows "what may come to pass" and "what may have been", and seeing such a compelling story and world, I feel the temptation to jump in.

There ought to be a word!

What can I do to jump in, but still retain my current life? We humans (I assume this is mostly a human thing due to my anthropocentricity) can "savor" other stories, read and become engrossed in books, movies, others' spoken stories, theatre, and largely it's a mental thing. You're present in a place, yes, but only entering the other timeline virtually. To jump in, what would that be? Would I only disturb both the water and the illusion, and end up in the same timeline, wet and disappointed, disenchanted as it were? Maybe, so I have a lot more confidence in exploring carefully the virtual environment of the alternate timeline, than in attempting to actually jump in.

I've experienced a sort of grief over the loss of all the other potential universes, which is of course technically silly (how could I live in any more than a single reality), and a form of FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out), but it is also real.

The myths of Narcissus (stuck staring into a reflection, transfixed) and Hermaphroditus (being transformed upon entering a pool) come to mind.

I just want a glimmer of glamour. I'm a little impulsive, but I want to bring that glimmer of glamour to others (I mean, really, that's the point, I will only feel like staring at shiny rocks by myself for so long).

If I can pull off being a dark fairy again, that would be great.
Black ruffled button-up shirt.
Sparkly green or maybe other color of makeup swirl on cheek, stemming from close to eye.
Wings.
Other elements coming together somehow, or at least not getting in the way.